While in an extremely shitty fight with my boyfriend last night he asked why did I keep the baby? Am I even ready? Was it to just keep him around? And the answer is I’m not ready, I don’t know anything about kids, I was never a kid person, and now here I am pregnant.. And no I would never have a child to keep someone around. The fact that when I found out I was pregnant.. My first thought was to get rid of it then after reading and researching I found out it’s brain and heart were formed, something in me clicked. I went to two abortion appointments and ending up leaving both of them. I don’t know why but I couldn’t get rid of it. I just couldn’t, don’t ask me why but I couldn’t. So here I sit being pregnant and my life slowly changing before my eyes. Yes I’m scared shitless and super confused on what lies ahead the unknown of the future is scary but I think I’ll manage with or without him.
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christina. 23 34/7. new york born and raised, now ive moved out to the west coast, and im living the california life style. all about traveling, photography, good vibes, good friends, great weed, happiness & positivity always. addicted to the simple things in life like the ocean, my camera, pepsi, icecream & coffee. very spontanious and random.
<3 I'm about to be a mommy in a couple months. Super stoked and can't wait to start this new chapter. Anyone having negative thoughts on this keep them to yourself I could careless what you have to say or think. So f off. :) have an awesome day!
i always find it strange how one can feel extremely beautiful one day, and like complete shit the next.
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